Bangladesh

carlylove

2008-06-22T11:11:00.000-07:00

uh...
i havent written in here in a while
a change of sorts i assume. i used to write in here when i was
thinking really hard and wanted stuf off my head or just plain bored.
listening to to much atmosphere
i must say he is very depressing, but in his depression is his genius.
to truly be happy i assume you have to fight through the times you just want to shut down.
carlylove
thats what i have.
i love my beautiful girlfriend, soulmate, lover
she is the world to me.
i love you snuggle bear, forever.

cold hearted

2007-10-13T05:24:00.000-07:00

uh bored.
im bored.
bored bored
bored.

the laughing man.

2006-11-20T23:16:00.000-08:00

today
i was walking and thinking
thinking and walking
both work
and i thought of a man.
he was a old man,
id say somewhere in his 60's.
he was sitting on a bench in the park.
i felt like he was sitting there for hours,
the way his coffee cup was on its side,
the way he had his hat placed by his side,
newspaper folded neatly on the other.
and he laughed.
to what, i have no idea
i could only imagine the depths of this mans laughter.
i didnt feel a strange connection to him
i felt no divine intervention happening.
i felt at peace.
i saw this man, in this park, simply laughing.
i didnt ask him what he was laughing about,
and i didnt feel the urge to.
then i cried.
i dont know why i cried.
i just did.
on the inside i cried a thoughsand tears.
then i saw a beautiful girl.
somewhat around my age,
maybe younger.
she had long beautiful hair,
and she was with some one.
a young boy, maybe somewhere around 3 years older than her.
the way he held her as they walked didnt make me feel envious.
i felt no warmth in my soul
i felt nothing.
then i noticed in the corner of her eye,
a single tear.
a tear of hope
... of sadness
... dispair
and all i could do was laugh.
i laughed a thoughsand laughs,
until i was out of breath.
and as i laid there
in the middle of this god foresaken park
where the birds dont chirp to loud
and the dogs dont bark to loud
and the grass isnt to pokey
but has a perfect feel.
i felt happy.
and as i passed away
i noticed a single tear from my eye,
seep down the side of my face,
on onto the grass.

elevation

2006-09-27T21:21:00.000-07:00

ok so theres this new girl.
i dont even care if the blogspot world knows who she is.
her name is carly. i think she is great. she is beautiful, smart( im pretty sure way smarter than me), and she likes me. so hahahahah.
idk there really is no reason for this post. im just extremely happy.
she makes me feel like i could fly. haha.
thats from the song but its pretty much the truth.
ok well im done with this post.
o and this is for landon. since he seems confused on who it is.